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Hey ho I am such a bitch.

I am so disgusted with myself

but sometimes I just cannot control myself.

Today I am feeling sickly and I am feeling the most terrible ever.

I want comfort.

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Like, hi.

This whole week wasn’t one of my best weeks although it was supposedly to be one.

Monday night I feel asleep at 3/4am and I woke up at 9am just to meet pearleen & cressielda for mj at ryan’s place. We played till 10pm. I think I lost 50bucks in total in that house. So I went to meet Vanessa, Suraj, Yanling and Jasmine near my house for drinking session. Yanling was the drunk girl of the day and she was soooooo wasted. I wonder if I do look like this when I am drunk too. >.< She vomitted like 10 000 times and finally Jasmine cabbed her back to Jurong. Van and I stayed and chilled out till the next morning.

I went home at 12 noon. 12 noon t0 6evening was crying session for me. I got scolded by my parents because of instant tonning again. But I bet, that wasn’t the main reason to find reasons to scold me for the 1st time. I don’t really the last time I was being scolded by any one of them. ): They shouted, I shouted. They scolded me, I scolded them. Finally, I asked to sit down and clear the air. What can I say? It got better but my tears were flowing like SG river ok. I was frigging upset over x and I just couldn’t stop crying. My eyes were quite painful after that but I went to put cooling stuff on it and slept for 1 hour. When I woke up, I thought I would feel better but no, I cried at shamin’s house again. I still cannot control my tears whenever I think of what’s gonna happen.

Is there a chance to turn things into a better form? Am I really a burden for them to stress about each and every time? Am I REALLY the reason why my dad is leaving for china. He said it’s not confirm, but I can’t help but feel scared. How could a man totally leave a whole family behind and go to CHINA to live just because ‘ i feel stressed over here ‘ Wtf? This is not convincing me. I think all china bitch sluts whores family-breaker should just go and die. Why do they have to do this to my family? I have always thought my family was the most perfect thing I have in life. But now..

What else can I do now? I am still feeling very very very upset over it and I really don’t know what to do now beside carrying on with my life. I want daddy back. I want daddy to love me like how he always have. I want daddy to bully me when I am rushing to go out. I want him to hold my hands and act like I am his girlfriend. I want daddy to love my mum even more. I know my mum deserve a man who loves her more than she loves him. I want daddy to bring us out to random places like long beach, airport, ikea or malaysia. Because daddy, although I only see you every night for 2 hours or lesser, I still love you, a fucking lot.

Will you come back? Will you love this family again?

Huh, I am gonna cry again. I am the only child in this family that made my mum and dad cry more than once. My mum cried because she was angry(typical~). However, my dad cried. A man, a all grown-up man cried because his daughter cried. I saw his face, i saw the tears, I could feel the sadness and helplessness when I told him how I felt about everything. He must have loved me a lot to cry for me.

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I went shamin’s house after my crying session at home to teach Michelle and Natasha mahjong. Left at 9pm and went to Jasmine’s house for overnight mahjong. Played till 8am and reached home at 9 plus. SLEPT FINALLY! It’s a record, I haven’t slept for 2 days!!! hahaha and I woke up at 3pm. Was super sleepy and shagged but I don’t like to cancel on people. winks* We dined at nikon something at cathay. Frigging nice I AM SO GOING BACK THERE AGAIN. It’s Jap food and it’s at B1 btw. Left for home and decided to stay at my house void deck till 1030 just because I needed to compose myself again. And guess what, it didn’t work. I am still feeling as cui as ever.

So i am working at EXPO Loreal warehouse sale from friday to sunday. 9am to 9pm. Come visit k? I will be at the counter, cash register. But I wouldn’t be able to talk because from what I recalled, the packers at the counter were damn busy! The queue is forever long long long I am glad I am working for all 3 days because I could finally escape from this home. I am still not ready for the change.

Good bye, my readers.

I used to adore this friend a lot, i thought we would be close and have fun together always. I always had fun talking to her and she’s one of the few whom I will always want to talk to on msn. However, recently I don’t know what on earth happened, she’s been getting on my nerves.

I feel that I barely know her already and she just keep annoying me. I haven’t exactly blow up yet but I think it’s a sooner or later thing. Oh how sad

Hey,

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I hate it when im tipsy from drinking HATE IT HATE IT HATE IT. It gives so many people so much trouble I think I should either stop drinking or learn to hold my alcohol well.

Hii!!! today stock taking was freaking fun! everything went well and i love love love the girl at this particular shop! Her name is Jo or something as maybelle claimed. She’s suppperrrrrrrrrrr cute and ultimate friendly. She wants to come my course in RP but she kena some SP infomatic course or something…. she was really upset by her look and she’s just so cute!!! We just sat there and chatted for very long and she also do not mind travelling. And I was like, ‘ DO YOU LOVE FOOD?!?! ” then she was like ‘ YAH!!!!! I LOVE FOOD!!! YOU TOO?!?! HOW YOU KNOW! ‘ then i was like ‘ HAHAHA. CUZ ALL FROM WHAT I KNOW ALL FOOD LOVERS DO NOT MIND TRAVELING FOR ANYTHING ‘ HAHAHAHAHHAA

so true.

met linsin for her hair cut HAHAHAHAHAHHA ” hidden short spiky hair ‘ siol. Okay bye!

Having the most sudden urge to staying in tomorrow. Hmmm on the other hand, I dw to waste a day staying at home eh. It’s the holidays!

Btw, I am craving for

1. Banana

2. Durian

All things yellow. Shamin’s favorite disgustingly and irritating colour whop!

Vanessa will be back tomorrow!

I feel like jogging tomorrow(LAUGH SOMEMORE, LAUGH.)

I am starting to pamper my body with lotion. Tt’s if I remember it.

I had a massive diarrhea this morning and I again, felt like fainting cuz of the PAIN ): Smthg’s wrong. I need to go get some pills or anything that is able to clear my bowels! I am excited I LOVE SHITTING

A few exciting plans here and there next week. Buffet dinner with class, kbox, drinking session(!!), shopping, collection21! hopefully they will fill monday-friday up nicely. Hehe weekend is easy, can always call my favourite eating get-fat kaki Soh Lin Sin. Eh omg, I just reaslied I don’t see any ‘ Majong ‘ up there. Haha!! Let’s see okay?

Oh oh I just told daddy i wanna durian cuz daryl and yanling tempted me on msn HAHA. Yay! durians on sunday woohooo!!!

That’s all!! Update again when laoniang feels like it bye bye!! 🙂

Haha hi omg i wannan blog about ytd! Got inspired by my shamz’s entry because she recently turned herself into a mj addict! NOT MY FAULT I HAVE NEVER PLAYED WITH HER BEFORE.. 😉

So anywayyyyyyyyy we spent like 30 mins or so playing the 1-10 game WE’RE GONNA BUY 4D. I swear we went gah gah gah during the game^^

Oh ya i was banker for Blackjack and I SUCKED! Lost like xx amount HAHA i can still remember my ‘ pom pom pom ‘ HAHA very fun to play with the girls seriously!!!

However mj luck was with me and i won the biggest win of my entire life not  a lot still 2 figures. 🙂 Hehehe treated them to mac breakfast!!!!! lemme win more and i will continue treating HAHA i just love the feel of the tiles ^^ $ doesn’t matter OOPS HAHA kidding.

it’s either IT fair, or mj w C or mh w S tomorrow. hehe!! loving the hols.

Good night!

uhm i think smthg’s wrong. very wrong. i only tonned out on wed’s night at my friend’s place how come i didn’t check my mails since mon/tues onwards.. i know i check my mails every single time i turn on my computer. could it be

1) i havent been turning on my comp since monday

2) or.. idk !!!! shit. haha

i am like a bit freaked out WHERE DID I GO AH I FORGOT OMG I CAN’T RECALL i only know i wasn’t home at all see sunday but i went back every night except for wed’s. OMG OMG this is freaking me out i think i am really tired to think tt’s why. Oh the stupidness.

Can’t wait to CUT and paint my nails tmrw.

i wanna borrow $ from my sister to get a camera but is it really worth it considering ‘ come lets take photo!! ‘ are words that are no longer heard by me nowadays

hmm hmm hmm